This is the first time I held her.
Mom wrote in the photo album that I called and called the hospital to find out when Rachel would be home. It feels like an accurate snapshot of an enduring, lifelong feeling I have of my sister, a picture that I hope over life's course will outshine those times that I have failed to hold her, out of my ignorance or blindness.
Rachel is a very strong woman, funny as hell, frank to the death, a loyal friend. Many, many people are better off for her presence in the world. I am one.
Today is also the birthday of Rachel's namesake, our Grandma Maxine, who passed away this fall. Here they are together 30 years ago! There are better photos of them together, I'm sure, but I love this one because of Rachel's intensity over a plastic egg.
And here she is modern day. Modern 7 days ago, actually, on New Years' with Cam. She and two girlfriends dressed up crazy funky and went out with their husbands. They dressed normal normal.